Our appointment on the 20th...Learning the proceedure, the cost and most importantly WHEN we can start.

The day finally came where we would learn about the ICSI proceedure and the cost involved of our treatment.

Mark's parents were up visiting at the time, so it was a relief to know that Harry would be looked after.

We arrived at our appointment and we were taking into the office where our nurse had an array of things laid out on the desk.

She started to explain the I will be taking a drug called Synarel and that it was used to decrease the amount of oestrogen produced by the ovaries. To create a more controlled environment to grow my eggs. She showed me how I would be using it and how often. She also then explained that at a certain point I would be injecting myself with either Puregon and Gonal F depending on the Dr's choice for me and and that this would stimulate the growth of my eggs to collect good numbers for fertilisation.

She then explained that I would be closely monitored by Ultrasounds and Blood tests to check my eggs and how I am coping with the drugs and then if all goes to plan I would go for an egg collection under a general anethestic and they would pick up my eggs and fertilise them out of my body.

At the same time Mark will make his donation to a plastic cup and his boys will be carted in an esky with my eggs. Then the Embyologist will take Mark's sperm and wash it down and take the best of the best and use those to fertilise each egg individually and then pray like crazy that the eggs fertilise.

After all this was explained and we were told to costing of the treatment and how much we were expected to pay for a stimulated cycle and then for an egg transfer. Thank goodness for Medicare and for the group Access www.access.org.au lobbing for our rights to assisted conception.

After all of our questions were answered, we were taken into the Dr's who worked out my treatment schedule and explained that he wanted to put me on the pill on CD2 and that is to pinpoint my egg collection and that I would start on the Synarel on 1st January 2009.

In the meantime I am to come back to him for a scan on December 17th and make the sure that all is clear for me to start on treatment and we hand over the $$ for the treatment and then start on Jan 1st.

Which leeds me to where I am today, 5 days out from my scan and payment and 21 days out from starting my synarel.

Freaking out about the could be's and what if's and just above all praying for a miracle.